The goal

Sometimes na write pasal personal life jugak kan. (konon2 blog dah transfer jadik ilmiah tak nak tulis pasal personal kan). Lagi a few days je genaplah sebulan being hired by Exxon. How do I feel? biasa je. In a month I hvent start any task yet, cuma training to get use with the system/software lah. Yesterday my team lead said Im gonna start my task this Feb. Good luck huh?. Thanks.Ive been waiting for so long. Maybe I could share something about Exxonmobil bcz who knows, someone need some infos on that. 1 month i guess isnt enough to elaborate my working experience in Exxon but I could roughly explain about it. Exxonmobile that based in the heart of KL is actually the support centre for Exxonmobil. So, most of the IT task here are basically giving services to Exxonmobil staff. Exxon is a place where you will be exposed to different kind of task. If you plan to get focus on something say like programming, then Exxon wont meet your dream. In the end, you gonna have diff type of experience and ability.

They dont highlight your position too much. We're not like any other companies with so many different position level. There are only team, team lead, manager and thats it. If someone said that he is a supervisor at Exxon, his position level might be as the same as manager in other companies. That's good I think, because there wont be too much gap kan.We address people by name even tho his position level is vice president. Cool huh? So there wont be any issue like some people yang too concern about pangkat 'kak' 'puan' bla bla bla. Get it? Not too much tense lah i think except for the work load. Ini standard la mana2 pun kan. Thats it i guess.

I had just been transfered to EAME team where my working hours start at 3pm and end at 12 midnight. For the mean time, sementara nk dpt kereta, my dad gonna pick me up setiap hari. Im feeling very guilty bcz I had burden him. Tgh2 mlm kene pick up her daughter ni dari kerja sedangkan he gonna work the next day. Pergi kerja pun mummy got to send me to the bus stop (jauh). Can you see how hard they tried to help me out?Serius I cakap, they meant everything to me. Besar amat pengorbanan diorang. Thats one of the reason I dont want to let them down anymore. I think perkara terbesar that I have let them down down giler was during my SPM. I x get straight A's and I noe that they were dissapointed even tho they dont show it. They just wanna be very supportive.

And bcz of that jugak, I set up a plan for my life and Im trying hard to work it out. As I grow up, many things that come to my mind. I focus more on my job, on my dream. Thats where some friends started to say that I have changed. Im not trying to be someone else and Im just being who I am suppose to be which is myself. Im still that happy go lucky and cheerful and a funny friend. When I meet my bff or when I meet my siblings of batch20, they still recognised me. I had never dissapear. I am still there, I am still here.

And because of the responsibilities, the dreams, the willing to find the right path to get Allah's blessing that change who I am. I become more clear of what I need to do and of what I have ever wanted to. Because of that, I wish that he will be clear about me, I wish that he will be clear to the reason of every single things that I did, I wish he'll be clear that how I wish I want to save the relationship, I wish he'll be clear how everything wont happened if he stood still and doing nothing and I wish he'll be clear how I hope that I cant wait any longer and how I hope I cud give him more and more chances to be taken and the wish will always be a bunch of wishes that wont happened if I x tegas dengan diri sendiri.It wont happened if I was always be there by your side and I keep saying it again and again to you.I noe you gonna hate it.It wont be happened if I push you so hard to understand how I feel. It wont be happened dear if you wouldnt want to change. And that is why I need to back off and to stay away from this. Its so hard to do this but its even harder if I dont.

Allah sudah merancang yang terbaik untuk kita dan bersangka baiklah pada Allah swt.


Bersabarlah (hai Muhammad) dan tiadalah kesabaranmu itu melainkan dengan pertolongan Allah dan janganlah kamu bersedih hati terhadap (kekafiran) mereka dan janganlah kamu bersempit dada terhadap apa yang mereka tipu dayakan. QS. an-Nahl (16) : 127

And endure you patiently (O Muhammad SAW), your patience is not but from Allah. And grieve not over them (polytheists and pagans, etc.), and be not distressed because of what they plot.


wallahualam~~

Sesungguhnya kita ini adalah kepunyaan Allah dan kepadaNya jualah kita kembali

I dont deny that its not easy to forget the past especially the bitter part. It takes time. Sometimes we need someone to forget the past but when that someone is no longer there we tend to live in the memories again. We cant hide the feelings because it just there and we knew that. It happened to me.

Life isnt like a digital camera. Capture-review-delete. Life is like a manual camera with a film inside. Capture and store. Things that happened cant be undo. It will just be there and it will leave a mark. Like the photos on the film. When it happened to us, we tend to blame here and there without realizing that we are not gratefull with what you have. And there we started saying, "if only I..." or "kalaulah aku...".

How long and how hard we could face it all? Firman Allah di dalam Al-Quran :


"Dan bersabarlah kamu terhadap apa yang menimpa kamu. Sesungguhnya ia merupakan perkara yang memerlukan keazaman (yang kuat)" (Surah Luqman 31: 17)

"Dan berikanlah khabar gembira kepada orang-orang yang bersabar. Iaitu mereka yang apabila ditimpa musibah mereka berkata 'Sesungguhnya kita ini adalah kepunyaan Allah dan kepadaNya jualah kita kembali'. Mereka itulah yang (Allah berikan) kurniaan (dan pengampunan) serta rahmat ke atas mereka, dan mereka itulah orang-orang yang beroleh petunjuk." (Surah Al-Baqarah 2: 155-157)


Isnt that enough to make us think again? We are all belong to Allah and to Him we will soon be returned.

Cameron Highlands

2009 school holiday was a bit lightI could say. We didnt go travel like previous year. Atuk masuk ICU and the school holidays was all about jaga atuk-melawat atuk and such. On 30rd Dis,atuk had been discharged and it give us a bit relief sebab barang2 keperluan sekolah adik wasnt prepared yet. That night, I proposed to my daddy about having a picnic at anywhere,just to spend a quality time together. To make it short,everyone was agree nak picnic at Lata Iskandar,30mins from Cameron Highlands. 3 of the main missionwas:

1) Picnic at Lata Iskandar
2) Angah's treat at Strawberry Moment Dessert Cafe
3) Eat and buat stok banyak2 ais krim Malaysia perasa strawberry
4) Jalan-jalan at Pasar Malam CH

Lata Iskandar is located in the middle of the way from Tapah to Cameron Highlands. Most of the tourist who went there didnt know the existing of the beautiful waterfall.So they will usually not prepared with baju mandi and such as. So if you're planning to go there, bring along your baju mandi! Since it is located up on the hill and its nearer to the CH, the water is so cool. Im not sure about its temperature. For a Nature's lover like me and daddy, the dizziness of driving is all gone when we touch the water.Tenang tau!

Next stop is the Strawberry Moment Dessert Cafe. The food is superb and recommended sgt2.You should try lah! Next to the cafe, there is a shop that sells strawberry products. From tea to coffea, chocolate and dried strawberry jugak.


Planning on a vacation?Ask me :)

Bersediakah anda untuk berhijrah ?

Bagaimana agaknya prestasi anda tahun ini? Tercapaikah segala misi dan visi yang disusun rancak di penghujung tahun yang lalu? Sila jawab sendiri :) Buku lama bakal ditutup, segala amalan sudah tercatat dan bermulalah buku baru. Apakah kita sedia untuk berhijrah sahabat semua? Semoga buku baru bakal diisi dengan amalan yang mendekatkan diri kita kepadaNya.

Alhamdulillah, I'll be start working di Exxonmobil this 4th Jan. Thanks for the prayer friends.

"Kau ni untung betul la pegi interview kat tempat gempak2 je."
"Wow, mula-mula bank negara lepas tu Exxon!"
"Dasyat ar ko ni. Mcm mane ko leh dpt aa?"

Those are beberapa potong ayat dari a few friends. I anggap semua ni rezeki and test dari Allah as well. Setiap perkara yang terjadi itu adalah hak Allah dan Allah berhak menguji hambaNya dalam pelbagai cara. Itu yang I pegang dalam meneruskan hidup ni. Terlalu banyak rezeki yang Allah berikan tapi apa yang I buat demi Allah? Macam boleh dikira untuk menggambarkan betapa sikitnya ibadah kepadaNya! Terlalu banyak benda that needs to be fixed, too much things to do tapi bila? Bila nafsu dah kuasai akal, beginilah manusia. Bertangguh dan mencari alasan saja kerjanya.

Dearest friends, yang penting jangan mudah berputus asa. Usaha itu harus berterusan dan jangan mengeluh. I tak terkecuali dari mengeluh bila kadang2 rasa givup, tapi beberapa hari lepas I terbaca tafsiran surah Al-Rum ayat 33-36 kalau xsilap.

³³ When trouble touches men they cry to their Lord, turning back to him in repentance: but when he gives them a taste of mercy as from himself, behold, some of them pay part worship to other god's besides their Lord,

³⁴ To show their ingratitude for the favours we have bestowed on them! Then enjoy your brief day; but soon will you know your folly.

³⁵ Or have we sent down authority to them, which points out to them the things to which they pay part worship?

³⁶ When we give men a taste of mercy, they exult thereat: and when some evil affects them because of what their hands have sent forth, behold, they are in despair!


Setiap manusia ada bahagian masing-masing. Rezeki masing-masing dan ujian masing-masing. No matter how hard the things that come to you, never ever blame Allah. Jelas semuanya datang dari kealpaan kita sendiri.

"Awak senangla, pegi mana-mana pun mesti ada orang suka punya, jadi tumpuan orang. I ni tak cantik, tak da siap yang nak!"

Subhanallah! Manusia ini adalah sebaik-baik ciptaanNya. Awak cukup sempurna wahai sahabat, punya mata untuk melihat, telinga untuk mendengar and the list goes on. Tiada yang cacat sedikit pun. Didiklah hati untuk lebih bersabar. Jangan tanya kenapa Allah tak tunaikan permintaan kita tapi, tanya apa yang kita buat untuk lebih dekat kepadaNya, apa kita buat untuk ucap syukur padaNya. Dearest readers, barangkali ada yang merasakan sempurna benar hidup I kan? Tiada cacat cela? Memang benar, I cukup sempurna kerana I tahu Allah maha mengetahui segala yang dilangit dan dibumi. Namun kerosakan itu dibuat oleh siapa? Kita sendiri! Dengan tangan inilah kerosakan yang kita lakukan.

22 tahun yang lalu I dilahirkan seperti dibungkus dengan plastik, bukan seperti bayi-bayi normal. Masuk ke alam persekolahan, I menjadi bahan ejekan sesetengah rakan. I dilahirkan dengan sejenis penyakit yang mana sepanjang hidup I bergantung dengan ubat-ubat dan since its genetic maka memang tiada cure. Namun sejak kecil I tidak pernah menangis kerana menyalahkan Allah yang mengurniakan penyakit ini, yang barangkali dianggap cacat oleh sesetengah pihak dan walaupun I menjadi bahan tawa orang. Sedikit pun tidak menyalahkan Allah. Bagi I, inilah uniknya I daripada yang lain. I ada apa yang orang lain tiada, alhamdulillah.

"Kau ni sakit ape ni? Peliknya! kene sumpahan ular ke? Mestilah takda orang nak kawen dengan kau.Turun saham.Hahaha"

I masih teringat akan statement yang dikeluarkan oleh seorang dewasa sewaktu I habis SPM. Ceteknya pemikiran, lantangnya suara. Hanya kerana penyakit yang I hadapi. I serahkan pada Allah. Biarlah apa pun yang orang nak cakap. Bukan kerana membangga diri, mendabik dada bercerita tentang " hebatnya I menerima takdir Allah". Tidak pernah terfikir! Hanya mahu teman-teman semua jadikan panduan. Setiap perkara yang terjadi adalah yang terbaik untuk kita. Bertaubatlah sementara masih ada masa kerana lintasan hati untuk berubah itu tidak datang selalu. Berhijrahlah dari tempat duduk yang sama. Berhijrah ke arah yang jauh lebih baik.

Ayat 37, Surah Al-Rum ;
(Mengapa mereka bersikap demikian?) dan mengapa mereka tidak melihat (dengan hati mereka) bahawa Allah memewahkan rezeki bagi sesiapa yang dikehendakiNya (sebagai cubaan adakah orang itu bersyukur atau sebaliknya), dan Ia juga yang menyempitkannya (sebagai ujian sama ada diterima dengan sabar atau tidak)? Sesungguhnya hal yang demikian itu mengandungi keterangan-keterangan (yang membuktikan kekuasaan Allah) bagi orang-orang yang beriman

Jadilah manusia yang tahu bersyukur dan berhati-hatilah dengan kesenangan yang dimiliki. Manusia itu sentiasa diuji. Jangan mudah lupa diri. Renung-renungkan.

Selamat menyambut awal muharam !

Ammar who ?

I had heard about this before but I didnt do anything about it. As in I read the news and that's it. But yesterday, hati tergerak to find out who is Ammar. As a result, its really impressive, touching and full of emotions. Whats more important adalah, dakwah Ammar tidak berakhir ketika kematiannya tetapi masih diteruskan sehingga hari ini. For details, click below links :

http://kalam-puncak.blogspot.com/ - Blog Ammar, tapi diteruskan oleh umminya

http://criestz.blogspot.com/ - Kisah sahabat yang menghargai friendshipnya

Membaca kisah Ammar, si pejuang muda mengingatkan diri kepada Fatimatussolehah, seorang teman yang maut di India. Arwah merupakan pelajar pergigian tahun akhir. Jangka masa perkenalan sejak 2006, pernah bertemu sekali. Perkenalan kami adelah tidak disengajakan. Teringat akan cerita yang dikongsi bersama arwah, cerita tentang arwah dan sebuah rahsia yang hanya tersimpan antara arwah dan saya. Semasa dok google tentang arwah Tim ada jugak a few friends of arwah ckp benda yg sama. Rahsia antara dia dan arwah. Xkesahla, yang penting perkara itu biarlah menjadi perkiraan arwah dan Allah swt. Pemergian arwah tidaklah seperti Ammar namun memberi kesan sedikit di hati ini. Tim, semoga Allah permudahkan jalan untuk kau di sana. Amin..Al-Fatihah